I cannot Actually means

Told the boys we shall be more mindful and pray to God b4 we use the word "I cannot..."

When we say "I cannot forgive..." or I cannot do such and such... "
1. We limit God. We do not trust Him that He's unlimited. ...
2. We against His word of promises that we can.
3. We pride ourselves above God to conclude our future.
4. We did not obey His Word of Truth in our lives.

Do not put a period (.) to our past experiences and current knowledge that may affect the future. He's mighty...
Love homeschooling.

Obedience in Parenting

I share with my sons abt the 4 layers of Obedience in my house.
From the lowest form of Obedience...
1. Obey to avoid beat.

2. Obey from fear - learnt from others past experience so i will not do the same.
3. Obey to be/get bless.
4. Obey to showcase FAITH in authority And LOVE for parents.
May we grow from glory to glory.

I thank friends who add more to my awareness of how limiting one perspective can be.
As a mom i have a strong belief in the " first time" “第一次". I have experience over and over again, anything i ever said for the first time, it somehow became my boys foundation. I told them a casual remarks like " fats blocked can cause heart attack" when they were two, have made them to be lean meat eater. Daniel is strong by eating only green vegetables and drink water. My boys do not fancy soft drinks. Thats also the reason why we sang so much of "Jesus loves you" to them. If you tell them, they are from the dustbin, they would have believed it. Now we know why some of us have identity crisis bcoz we were told that...

Culture say we all have our rights so makes many things an options and we can fight for everything just the way we want it. Today my new perspective is to help my children to have a tunnel vision on Obedience, Zoom them in to Obedience, bcoz is the right thing to do, making it almost not an option.
"Love me Obey me" "Love me follow me." This is throughout the whole bible, OT God said it, NT Fishermen did it...
The world perverted it, a statement highly used in BGR on young girls, " if you love me, you will do as i say." Many falls in such perverted obedience. They most likely heard it for the first time and they gave in.
Now i know why I am still struggling with having my kids to obey, bcoz i gave them and option, " can u obey or not!" " Why u dont obey" "you dont want to obey is it！??" "Obey mummy can or not"
Today i will start building a horse's view blinkers (horse tack) on my boys eyes so it helps them tunnel in to see obendience and run the race well.
For the first time and forever Say the right thing to them.
Thanks to my friends in MBC to remind and point out bible importance to me.

Working with Jethro Wise Lee

I did almost exactly the same with Jethro. He started watching baby signs at 4 months. He picked up phonics at 2 yrs and learn to spell at 3. He is adventurous, he will try any food we ask him to. He was in the pool at 2 months, he loves the water, cold water. Before 2yrs old, we just dunk him in water, we will sing "humpty dumpty sat on the wall, humpty dumpty had a greattttt....fall" and he will push himself in the water, head fully submerged. At 3, he is playing in the adult pool.

I always knew he will do more than fine in school, i didn't have the " need to home school" him feel. Indeed he is a good student, very attentive and his teachers loves him. But the sad thing is he will say" aunt Pauline taught me, mummy did not teach me." Ouch!

He too was watching " meet the sight words", but he cant seems to remember the words, then i realised maybe he is not a visual learner like Ranen, he could be a audio learner.

Jethro has a total different personality. He is sweet spirit , generous and obedience. But when he is correct he can be very strong. He knows his boundary, if we correctly him wrongly, he will let us know by sulking. He used to be so strong, he will refuse to apologise when was his fault. After breaking his will, he is much tender now. He loves Ranen very much, always give in to him and serving him when was told. He is a hugger.

Working with Prince Ranen Lee

I started sitting Ranen in front of the television at 4 months, he was watching Baby signs.  I know babies are not suppose to watch so young. But there was nothing much i could do with him when i am doing house work. When his 10th month came, we took him down stairs, he saw a dog and he tapped his lap. Then i knew he did learn from the DVD. I noticed he will sign the next scene, i reckon he have a great memory. We had no issue with him in his toddler years, he was a happy chap, nothing kept him down for long. We tried baby can read, he very quickly pick up words, but i was inconsistent to show him daily.

Basically he can read before 4 yrs old. He was learning numbers from Sesame street with Ernie, and recognising pattern with Bert and phonics with LeapFrog. I was watching with him all these time. I picked up phonics from Leapfrog too.

He loves puzzles, he was such an active boy, but puzzles can sit him down for a long time. We did lots of things together, i taught him how to do up the corners of the puzzles first, then the sides then fill in the missing in the middle. We knead play-do to strengthen his pincer grip, we sang, make up songs, painted, taught him colours and mixing into secondary colours. Read a lot of God's word to him.

He is such a clever child, he grasp concept very fast. A funny concept - we used to sing to him " this little piggy" when a friend of my wiggles her fingers and ask him " what is this?" he answered," pigs".  he remember all the bible stories i told him. One of the early games we played was bible story Q&A. Due to his memory power, he remember all the words i scolded him too.

He is K2 next year, i still feel he should be taught by us personally. He thrive with one to one training. He is currently ahead in K2 works, we like to train him in obedience and social aspect.

Forgotten Blog

Dusted and found my blog.

Wow been many years since i wrote this, is such a in thing now. Just a super duper quick update so i can move on from here.

In 2009, i had Jethro he is a plumpish baby, 3.2kg. He is such a textbook baby, on time and very obedient. He was mainly taken care by Derrick so he is such a daddy boy.

In 2012, God bless us with our third handsome boy, Asher Noah. He is so precious to us and his brothers.

I am reconsidering home school since i last left it on the shelve 5 yrs ago. That's how i found out i actually have an account w blogger. I wanted a space to pen down all my work with my boys, hence it is a wonderful place for me to start from here.

Conversation with my Creator.

Prayer today for depression.

I went out for ministry time, convince myself that i will not cry, not pray and not expect all the emotional roller coaster. I just want Jesus to heal me of my thought life and i really wanted the Holy spirit to live out from inside of me to over take my whole being. I stood there not thinking not praying. For a long time i waited, everyone ard me was prayed for but me.

Ps Dan came and lay his hands and prayed, he told me that my past experience with churches and leadership are weighing me down etc etc... He continue to tell me that he saw a vision and he will speak from my destiny. He saw me holding my bible and sharing teaching the word of God. Though all these are somewhat my dreams but is long suppress.

I did not cry much as i told myself not to be emotional,i often think too much at ministry time that i miss God. so i will just wait upon the lord. Anyway, Ps Dan know my past so for him to said those are not suprising to me.

Shortly, Lilian came and prayed for me. Neither did she ask what i prayer did i came up for, she just pray...Finally she stop and ask me what are the desire i ask the LOrd? All of the sudden my tears duct burst, i recalled many many many many many things i want from the lord, to share the gospel to many, if Christ die for all, all men have the rights to hear the gospel so his blood will not shed in vain. I want to live intimately with God, knowing his heart beat, living the glorious life, etc etc.....

I forgotten all abt them. She continue to comfirm with me what she felt, she saw a stopper being unplug by God and all the disappointment and sense of lost Hope are being drained away from me...after she walked away, i stood there and listen to God speak to me,

Lele and his New Buddy - Alexavier

I wanted a play mate for Lele. Thank God He sent 11kg heavy weight Alexavier and his gentle generous mummy Geraldine to us. They turned up at my 1st outing at City hall. Then we met up at Plaza Sin, and twice at my place. I am so glad that Alexavier is a "textbook" baby and Lele is a "angel" baby( by Tracy todd) Both of then are not aggressive babies, they played so well together, none of then snatch toys off each other. They eat together and watch educational show together.

I love Alexavier, he always bring so much joy to me just by looking at him. By the way he is twice Lele size wahahahah... Of course we found is tough to take a nice photo with both of them still. This is a very 1st photo we took with them.

Alexavier is such a encouragement for Lele. All the toys in my house became new once Alexavier play with them, they "suddendly" turn fun and new to Lele. Even the food i serve became delicious. When Alexavier eat, Lele eat. My husband asked a silly Qs yesterday," Do you think Lele likes Alexavier bcoz he is cute?" hahah like Lele knows the different.

Ya why we call them buddy? Bcoz Lele is 1 Oct korkor, but he is so small compare to 3 Oct didi, so is strange if we address them as kor kor and didi, So Geraldine felt that buddy is a good term to address them.